Now to manifest a very big thing indeed!

This week I finally confronted the remaining elephant in the room: my driving.

It's becoming very difficult to get the car in gear these days. Hubby has had to get reverse for me sometimes, and last week he had to do the same for first gear. The problem is that, if my arm hasn't been used and has been in one position for a while, it goes into spasm when I try and do anything with it. If I pump my forearm up and down, and try and move the whole arm, that does help, but it still hurts.

Janet, my business partner, suggested I consider an automatic car. I've never driven an automatic in my life and I think I might have to have a lesson in one first, but I was so intrigued by this that I ran the possibility past hubby.

His response floored me: "why don't you investigate it then?" So I did.

I'm strongly considering leasing one, because I can have it for a couple of years, and if I don't like it when I'm better, I can get a "normal" one.

So I'm going to call into the garage next week and have a discussion with them about this. I'm also going to have a chat with my accountant to see what he says about its implications for the business.

Hopefully this will prolong my driving ability, and shorten the amount of time I have to have off work.

Wish me luck!

I'm still here.

May 13th came and went, and I'm still here.

Still in pain, now with the additional complications that my muscles feel weak when I walk, my right hip hurts, and my neck and both shoulders both hurt too. Shopping this week was a night mare.

The Tens machine does work but not for long enouch. The Fenbid gel also works after a fashion, as I can't quite reach where it needs to go!

As I need to have a reasonably clear head, I can't take the full dose of 2 x 30/500 Zapain. I take 1 every so often, roughly every 3 hours at night as I think that's going to amount to much the same, and if I stop and take 2 x 500 paracetamol at about 3am then the hangover process has started so I have a roughly clear head by 9am.

I've started taking the Naproxen every morning again to see if it works. No improvement so far but I think it needs to build up, as does the Organic Beauty Oil from NYRO which I stopped taking in March on the advice of the pre-op nurse. Now I know that it actually works, I'm going back on it!

I found a very good pain scale this morning, which is 0 - 12. On that scale I'm operating at 7 - 9 most days, with the pain being enough to distract me from concentrating and stopping me doing things (like putting the gear lever into reverse).

I'm completely running out of ideas now. The only thing keeping me going is the thought that one day this will be over. Sorry to be so negative.

My crowdfunder is here. I'm considering using it to pay for taxis to get us everywhere as I'm finding driving so very painful.
https://gogetfunding.com/please-fund-my-convalescence/

Unexpected consequences

When I had the pre-op interview at the hospital, I was advised to stop taking all the supplements I take because they will interfere with some of the medications I will have to take during the op and recovery process.

I'd never heard of this, I must admit. I had heard that some drugs would interact with the omega supplements but not all the supplements.

Anyway, the first one I stopped taking was the Organic Beauty Oil from NYR Organic. I take this because it is an excellent source of the 3-6-9 Omega oils, with hemp oil in it too. Very nourishing.

Today was the first day I really noticed its loss, about a month after I stopped taking it. Not only is my shoulder really getting worse now, but now my knees are playing up, with pain and weakness starting to affect me.

Oh decisions - should I start taking it again and risk the wrath of the surgical team? I may just do that!

https://gogetfunding.com/please-fund-my-convalescence/

Wearing a bit thin now

This here pain and restricted movement is starting to wear a bit thin now.

It's worst in the mornings when I'm driving to work. Thank god I still have one good arm!

So I decided to get myself a sling to support the arm as it might help even before I have the op. The thinking here is that if people see the sling they might help me, and it might stop me trying to do things I really can't. Managed to find a nice purple one on Ebay!

Of course what would help is actually having the damn operation. I did consider getting a witchy friend to cast a spell for it, but I am reluctant to mess with karma etc. Guess I just need to keep taking the tablets then.

Thank you all for your help. More and more donations coming in, which mean I have nearly reached the amount for a week in a convalescent home. I need to research it now!

https://gogetfunding.com/please-fund-my-convalescence/